lachrymosa.

WEEEEEEE...
ah, I feel happy =) I miss writing something here on LJ. I still haven't written a single chapter for an update (baka me!) Gomen ne, I have so much on my mind, I can't write a single coherent sentence. XD A lot has happened this past week...mixture of terrible sadness and overwhelming joy. But right now, I'm just sooo happy, I'm all warm! >.< (ack! I have a fever! lol) College is driving me mad, (not literally XD) and I'm looking forward to have any major subject on my course Psychology...*is overexcited* I just want to escape the evil clutches of Math for good! XD wow, I DO sound happy, and all my past entries were too sad. O.O I hope this happy-ish entry would be the same on my next post, unexpected things happen to me a lot of times now, and most of which leaves me sad and lachrymose it's kinda foreign being all smiles and giddy...hehehehe... I just hope I can get my writing streak back...I miss it, honestly. T___T Saa, that's all for now I think...ah...it's nearly Christmas >__<

>> I need to rest...
lachrymosa XDDDDD

Title: Meet You There
Pairing: TezukaFuji
Genre: ANGST/ Drama
Rating: PG...
Word count: 1,042 words

Disclaimer: I only own all the angsty-ness written here, not POT, not the Simple Plan song and not even the title.

A/N: Yaay~ At last, for months of not being able to post a story, here’s a oneshot for you guys~ I’M SO SORRY for not being able to update for too long! T__T Will you guys help me decide on which of my stories I should update first? I placed a poll in my profile (FFnet), so please visit and pick your choices so I could write and update for you guys~ Thank you in advance. XD

 

Warning: MAJOR ANGST. Yes, I’m back with all my angsty-ness.  And this fic is…okay okay, a deathfic (because it’s almost All Soul’s day XD). Let us fell the spirit of that coming day ^__^

 

Dedicated to stevie_chan for helping me get my muse back and to my good friend for, well, getting the heck out of me every single day. XD I suggest you guys listen to the song, you’ll feel the story more that way~ XD (Meet You There by Simple Plan)

 

Told on Fuji’s POV.

 

Wow. I missed LJ so much!!! I've been gone for too long....
After the typhoon's ultimate one day wrath, followed a week devoid of internet connection at home. IT WAS MADNESS. XD
And then Monday it was restored...
Tuesday...The MONITOR crashed. T____T
epic epic epic epic epic...
And it was only restored yesterday. oh joy... :)
I have a lot of catching up to do...stories to finish, exams to study.... whaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
work hard. work hard. work hard.
I'll just do more on my sembreak...hehehe, the week after the next~ XD for now...stuck with college.
And is getting all sore from all the dance thingy that we have for finals...
I am so not born to dance.
waaaaah....oh well. I'm just happy to write something here after weeks of not being able to...
gambatte to me...next week is Final Exams torture week... yaaaay...

XD XD :) XD XD

i can't take it anymore. this PAIN is just too depressing.
This isn't what I expected things to go.
twists of fate. or whatever that is. i can't take it. maybe I can. but right now, I DON'T KNOW.
Where shall things go now?
What shall happen to me? To everything I said and did?! was it my fault to choose this decision to make?
MY  MISTAKE. IT WAS ALL MY MISTAKE TO HAVE PLAYED DUMB. CARELESSLY MARRING WHAT I THOUGHT WAS AN ALREADY FLAWLESS UNFOLDING OF EVENTS.
...I shall close my eyes. hope things would be the same, more importantly....let me remain stoic...passive...
i'll hide underneath my facade of smiles. for the meantime.
ouch. ouch. ouch.
the masochist in me is stirring under the crevices of my very soul.
(I hate it. I sound so dramatic.)
Smile. i need a smile that can withstand anything...everything.



just to lessen the pain.

(i just need to vent out the confusing pain inside, reader, please ignore my sick tirade)

lachrymosa is confused.
What's happening with her drastic life?!
must it be because of a certain....******
Whatever that is....*sighs* She's plainly trapped in the torment of her emotions.
Ah....hm...It's something so unpredictable...something so uncontrollable.
I can't control....my feelings.
This is why...I'm unable to write...or even think straight.

To that certain...******...it's your fault why I'm like this.
Why do you have to be the person who you are...?!?!
And it's all making me...Confused. Lost. Out of my head all the time.
Why do you have this kind of effect on me...it's driving me over the edge of confusion.

my heart will burst.

...any moment now.

Title: To Find What Is Lost
Pairing: TezukaFuji
Genre: Romance, Drama...angst?
Rating: PG...
Word count: 2, 703 words
Disclaimer: To own what isn’t mine, is to get a one way ticket to doom.

A/N: First and foremost, I am so sorry for not being able to update any stories of mine for a long while, I’m am currently in a major writer’s block, poorly motivated, terribly preoccupied with school and is going through a confusing phase in life. I am praying that my writing days won’t slip by because I feel like it already is, and here I am forcing myself just to prove that I am not saying goodbye yet. I’m so sorry, my dear readers, for my fail. I will try to update my stories…soon. For the meantime, enjoy my oneshot offering. Thank you.

 

Dedication: This oneshot is for tsundelenxkaho  and chibikaoruchan  for their birthday. To you, my dear friends, a happy happy birthday~ XD And also this fic is dedicated especially to a friend of mine who inspired me to write this very profound story. May you find what you seek, my friend.

 

Now enjoy.

 

Blah- Fuji’s er…story told on a second person POV. Mostly explaining his past in connection to the story.

Blah- The actual story, and Tezuka’s POV.

( He wished of a heart…willing to move on, willing to let go, willing to forget. )

My dear friends...Hi to all of you...
I face the problem of not being able to update....T___T
Busy schedule...college is a burden...and it's also midterm week...TT^TT
Wah...I hope I could finish a chappie soon...I really hope my writing muse would come back....*sighs*
So it'll be a while again before you guys could read my stories...
Is this a hiatus?!
I hope not....but my bunnies are still on vacation....tragic.
Ah well, I just want you guys to know that...
I'll do my best to update soon...gambatte to me....XD

*slaps myself*

I shall update.....



...soon.



T____T

This fic is made fortinjhi10 for her birthday today~!!! Happy birthday~! Woooo!
And also for my anniversary here on FFnet~ Yosh~ I've reached a year!!!! XD (Only active this January....XD)
Thanks for those who have been my friends!! I hope I'll meet more...XD
Hope this rather short oneshot is okay....XD And Hope you guys will enjoy~

Title: On Frail Wings He Flies
Pairing: TezukaFuji
Genre: Romance, a little angst I think...
Rating: PG...
Word count: 995 words (short....heh heh)
Disclaimer: No Doubt, I don't own them...

Heck...I'm just so gullible!
I lost count on how many times I fell for my friend's schemes...! T___T
How naive, and my friend's a guy and a close friend...so mortifying when he would remind me of my gullible-ness.
I thought once for sure when he asked me to try to reach my nose with my tongue then he'll explain the psychological meaning behind it...(and I can't believe I relented and followed his instructions...good thing only while we were chatting not face to face) and then he went on telling me the explanation...
That I'm just  gullible, naive that would do something not knowing it's just a PRANK.
TToTT....>///<

And I almost fell again when he utterly convinced me that he went bald...OMG. (He's the least of all that I expected would go bald cuz he just loves his hair too much)
I almost believed him again...cuz he's just so darn good with his words of scheme....
And earlier...it turned out he's not bald after all and it was plain....ploy again. GAH. good thing...I didn't believe his words this time...but I almost did.

Oh...why am I so prone to this...T___T
I SO wanna give him some dose of his own medicine for making a fool out of me for so many freaking times already...
(But not that evil since...He's like my best friend...XD)

>>I'm hopelessly gullible. wah.

Title: The Author's Notes: Note 10
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance/Fluff, AU
Pairing: Tezuka/Fuji
Summary: Being the editor, Tezuka found it annoying to receive notes of endearment from the author.
Disclaimer: I will never own them....wah
A/N: At last I updated~! Still so busy with school and all...I hope this chappie's okay...I only finished it today, so pardon any mistakes....still have to study for two quizzes...gah. Comments~

The author named Lachrymosa13blue is apologizing for her epic fail of missing a promised update date. She is currently mopping for the loss of plot bunnies and the evasion of writing mode. She hopes to finish a chapter of The Author's Notes anytime so she could update and make up for her epic fail. She is apologizing to all her readers...and she is now sulking and trying to convince her plot bunnies to possess her again. She is thankful for those who will understand. She is hoping to write soon and overcome her currently busy schedule. To all her friends and readers, the author wants them to understand her epic fail...her tragic laziness, sad evasion and drastic schedule. She apologizes...and stays hopeful.

Hoping she would make up to it,
Lachrymosa.

Ah...I need to write...I dunno why. But suddenly I have no plot bunnies at hand...I'm nearing my 1 year on FFnet (Aug.12) and I need to write a fic to be posted on that day...gah, but I'm so void of any good ideas right now...gah...I hate it when plot bunnies would leave me....wah. And there's school...this is plain torture! I think I'm going nuts...

And a friend of mine is torturing me...(burn ryoma....to torture that guy back...)
Oh...how can I survive this...I really need to write a oneshot so bad...gah.

Come here, bunny bunny bunny...
don't be shy....come here....bunny...

*I'm so out of it*

Title: The Author's Notes: Note 9
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance/Fluff, AU
Pairing: Tezuka/Fuji
Summary: Being the editor, Tezuka found it annoying to receive notes of endearment from the author.
Disclaimer: I claim not owning them... :D
A/N: Ah, I updated at last~ XD Anyone interested in joining the collaboration of TeFu fangirls/authors? Just tell me, we're recruiting members...XD Comments...:D

Warning: Spoilers and pointless rants of a disappointed fan.
Note: This all just in my opinion, so to those who'll bother reading this, if you have other opinions, it's fine by me. This is really just my own 'review', so yeah...we think differently...XD

Disappointment. AGAIN.
I was really, utterly disappointed by the HP6 movie...I should have really not expected that it will be better this time.
It's not altogether that bad...I was just plainly disappointed with the outcome.
I've read the seven books enough to scar me since it's been like...countless times already.
So many changes, so many...missing vital parts.
From a perspective of someone who had not read the book, it would be utterly confusing and...(I know this is hard for me to admit cuz I'm a fan) boring. Not all really, there are parts that I was laughing and all...but to wrap it all up, it was kinda monotonous and fast paced? (For me okay?)
...It feels so lacking...
The white tomb funeral was not even included...gah, it's just so disappointing.
And so many unexplained matters...missing Bill and Fleur isn't there...and they are supposed to be engaged and will have a wedding for the next part (I warned 'spoiler' okay?) and the beginning is way too different! And the development of Harry and Ginny's relationship was...o.O. I for one thinks that the only exact thing there like in the book was Won-Won and Lav-Lav's relationship...(they had really made a great job emphasizing it...accurate enough) But gah, the other stuff...different. The ending was...what? O.O

Well, it IS a MOVIE. So I have to accept it.
I'm not writing this to dishearten anyone nya! I'm only venting out...really.
It is still a great movie. I still love HP so much.

And most importantly, this is only my opinion.
I'm more of a book fan of the series...but yeah, well...I'm still looking forward to the last installment.
Harry Potter~

Ah, I got carried away again. XD

I feel so OLD.
hahaahha, so today's my rainy birthday!
And I ought to write an entry...! heh heh
thanks again for everyone who greeted me!

Oh, I'm drenched! hahahahah....
wah, I feel old...heh...
yay for seventeen! ^_____^

wee...tefutefutefutefu. (random) >_____<

Title: The Author's Notes: Note 8
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance/Fluff, AU
Pairing: Tezuka/Fuji
Summary: Being the editor, Tezuka found it annoying to receive notes of endearment from the author.
Disclaimer: I claim not owning them... :D
A/N: The eight chapter...glad to have finished it...weee...Comments! Might take me weeks before updating again...I hate exams.

Title: The Author's Notes: Note 7
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance/Fluff, AU
Pairing: Tezuka/Fuji
Summary: Being the editor, Tezuka found it annoying to receive notes of endearment from the author.
Disclaimer: I claim not owning them... :D
A/N: Here's the seventh chapter~ Hm, it's a bit short but I hope it's okay...Comments are loved.

Title: The Author's Notes: Note 6
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance/Fluff, AU
Pairing: Tezuka/Fuji
Summary: Being the editor, Tezuka found it annoying to receive notes of endearment from the author.
Disclaimer: I don't own them...only dreamed of doing so.
A/N: The sixth part! This isn't too fluffy for me...but I hope you guys still enjoy it! Comments~

Title: The Lapse of Oblivion: Chapter 1
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Drama, Angst, Romance
Pairing: Tezuka/Fuji
Summary: You can ignore me, you can leave me. But don't ever forget me.
Disclaimer: I don't own them...only dreamed of doing so.
A/N: First chapter...! I still haven't updated...gah. Comments...I will treasure them.

Title: The Lapse of Oblivion
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Drama, Angst, Romance
Pairing: Tezuka/Fuji
Summary: You can ignore me, you can leave me. But don't ever forget me.
Disclaimer: I don't own them...only dreamed of doing so.
A/N: I've posted this story on FFnet for a long while now and is up to 11 chapters with 4 more chapters left and I still haven't updated. Due to Tacuma's er...nudges, I've decided to post it here...comments are loved~